Just came back from Mandarin hotel.. Nope i wasnt having some wild sex on comfortable beds... I just had some drinking sessions at the Bar at the 38 storey.. It was quite breathtaking i would say..but night in Singapore does not look as busy as i expected..
Anywayz had this test tube liquour with Vodka base and some other liquour... And thanks to Zach's Sis's gf for the treat! -bow- But hor.. i damn jealous can.. Two lovey dovey couples and left me and Benji.. yes coincidentally two Bens... Never mind.. Love very exciting meh.. i can also go hug my toilet bowl.. kns
O and thanks Benji for the CAb.. owe u one... Yep.. thanks to u la.. keep saying the woman look like the MAid.. U noe how many momos are there right now.. its like 12 midnight already lo kaoz... Although i dont really believe in ghost but i do believe in spirits..
Well.. I donno who i am already... i am simply lost and confused.. its a lie if i say i do not want someone to love me... But the prob is .. even if i label myself as Bisexual.. given more options.. love seems to be another extra mile from me... Its so hard for me to fall in love again... If u ask me to like a guy.. yes i can.. but its still feels so different.. beneath me i still want a girl..donno why also... But with a girl, i tend to be very picky on their behaviours.. o goodness..i am just one fucked up male whore... Seriously, dont ask me if i am gay or straight anymore.. i am just label crisis..full stop..
I am afraid that one of these days, i will lose the entire meaning of relationships.. I am sorry that i have already lost the supposedly way to court girls.. the normal bastard ways.. sad to say.. most girls love to be showered with sweet talks and bastard behaviours..its stupidity but at least bitches and bastards get together.. i have nothing..
Maybe the best way for me is to be single and indulge more in retail therapys lol.. Donnno la..see how it goes...
Thats life for Ben... Embrace it.. Accept it and move on...